seacielo - Da Kine o’ Life

had i not have such wonderful friends, i could’ve hasted death. however, i really want to stay away from all that fuzzy drama of mine. yeah sure i’m depressed, clinically depressed as a matter of truth. again, i have my reasons. again (again), i also have my coping strats. i realized it never did change. same old same old - TV, sports and study. sounds familiar but it keeps me safe from my self. i learn to think again. i mean, think of things that i usually thought before. things like polyester hats and salty skies; and, all of those which excite me. i am still praying to be happy. wait, i still don’t want to be happy. i’m just having faith to be okay.

i have cancelled my trip to tanauan. i don’t know, it just doesn’t feel right. maybe because it’s holy week. i have to be with my family. i have to respect tradition. oh well i take that back… it’s all about my faith actually. i have to observe the Lent. i really don’t know why, but that’s how i feel. so, beavis is going again without me. but i’m definitely going to bacuag. i’m meeting beavis there. it’s been a long time since i last spent time with him. among my skim friends, he’s the one i am not subjected to limitations. i don’t have to put everything in a conceivable limelight. he can bitch on me. i can bitch on him. but, at the end of the day… we are still friends. he’s the only beach buddy that i can go beyond the wave forecasts and all that. *sigh*