seacielo - Da Kine o’ Life

with all my recent wentworth miller obsession - inspite the rumor that he is gay (who cares if he’s gay) - i still got my mojos on to just one guy and one guy alone… scyld. i never realized he is really the one. it’s a little bit too late for regrets, ei? and i’m always almost in tears looking back to the past… our kick-ass-kinda-wuthering-heights relationship.

i don’t know what got into me, but i checked his friendster out. OMG! i think he broke up with that mediocre nursing chick. that’s the good part. the worse part- well, he is kind of digging into another chick. i just don’t know why some tantalizing air breeze my way and tell me that he’s free (?).

anyhoo, it doesn’t really matter now, does it? i mean, it’s all over. all i have is a million of wishful possibilities that i just rather smile away. i don’t want to come begging for him again. i got to have some pride this time. remember: i laid it all, i mean all for him. well, except sex. that was really the stupid of me. i should’ve done him. i mean really, i really fucking regret that fucking fact. just so you know, i cum many times in our phone sex… probably the only guy who turns me on and makes me cum without really doing me fo shizzle.

I REALLY MISS HIM. again and again… I WILL ONLY LOVE HIM IN THIS LIFETIME. i will hold on to that promise. probably the only promise my whole self and soul would ever keep. hmmn… actually next to my promises to God. I LOVE HIM. I’M STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM. basta… whatever!