seacielo - Da Kine o’ Life

dear kie,

time is definitely running out for you and me. what ever left of us has slowly fades away. i feel it does not matter to you, and little by little i feel my own skin. getting into my senses, something like that. there is no point somehow. it’s hard to fight for a reason that does not even have a tiny clarity of what should be. i have been really trying so hard time and time again. yet, i still couldn’t make sense of this, of your point. i really don’t know if i still want us, want you. i do surely love you. but what is love if i already lose my faith in you?

i don’t know if you already have it coming. you know too well i’m not good with waiting, somehow i will eventually get tired then do stupid things. reasons enough to abandon me once again. oh how i need you right now more than ever. but i know that you would never understand what i need, or why i terribly need you. i just hold my self tightly not to take refuge in you. i would like to say that you’re the only one i got in this world, but i know you will not give meaning to such words. i want to stop embarrassing my self because of you. i think that’s the right thing to do.

all these times, i just need closure from you but you would not give me even that… even that. so here i am, making my own closure. i think those years are enough. i know i’m such a boomerang with you. i always find my self going, leaving, getting back, going. i think you’re aiming wrong this time. whether you meant it or not, i don’t know….

you are always going to be my one true love. the only person i will ever love with the purest meaning of how love should ever be given or felt. but at the end of the day, i’m still human. someone who longs to be love back. i only want to be loved by you. but if life will not afford me of that privilege, so be it. i will not fight anymore. unconditional love is tough.

i thought i’m strong and invincible, but i’m not. i’m just inloved. with you.

i love you kie. i will always love you. and i know it’s stupid, but i will still keep my promise. but that just it. goodbye.

waving away,

cielo

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