seacielo - Da Kine o’ Life

im so going to run to the mall tomorrow. i can’t show up in class just as i am. i have to put on a costume. lol! yeah that’s what i call for formal attire. i just don’t have the luxury of dilly dallying in malls. now that i’m at it, i need some shoes too! well, i’ve been shopping online for quiet awhile now. it’s all the time i can afford. i wish i could afford a pair of Manolo Blahnik.  when will i ever afford those. *roll eyes* regardless, i’m finding shoes that won’t hurt my feet in any way, especially my heels and toes.

it’s just a matter of time that we will be somewhere else. it’s really too bad, i mean despite the downsides of this apt. i like it here. it’s like back home - when i step outside the door, everything is convenient, even at 2am. but the landlord is raising the rent, which is unfair considering there has been no maintenance whatsoever. like, it will take forever to flush the toilet. i’ve already asked donna if we could complain. but since, the landie has this scary aura, we just bear it. i’m really hoping that by the time i’m back here, the toilet is fixed.

ha! i’m glad i’m not unpacked yet. hmmnn moving is still in 3 or 4months. lol! i wonder where can we hire movers like those New York movers. i wish we are not moving to somewhere guadalupe. it’s where the concentration of pollution whole year long. it’s like the winds converge there or something, regardless if it’s habagat or amihan or anything. ohh i can’t tell donna that. tsk tsk.

huh! i say, i’m going to buy someone a foamie if he or she could give me a decent picture of me ripping a wave. lol! desperation resulting from abrupt frustration. i got the pix from korookz! ugh! i’m off now! hey brad, what’s the no comment comment all about?

i remember teacher jane and her song, “…tendons, tendons, alive bone.” it’s actually the ligament that connects the bone to another as she has said. but in my case, it’s pumping up calcium intake. really, it’s just the supposedly dosage i should be taking regularly - milk, calcium supplement, yogurt, etc. mommy always say so. then well, as always, i’m bit a little hard headed.

i have gone to the doctot yesteday. i purposely did not take my xray with me, pull a little lie about it so i could get i new one. teehee! my bone is healing and becoming a baby again, or at least that part. i think i’m going to name my left clavicle CLEO. lol! after 3 breaks, i think it’s really alive alive, not just a part of me but some who-the-hell-knows-forces make it vulnerable, or at least it’s my uncle who has really broken it after my first accident. he’s bad at first aid.

so the doctor says, i still have to wear the brace for another two weeks. bummer! upside: i can still get a seat on the train without fighting for it. still on the upside but without the brace: in 3 months, i can get back to skimboarding. u oh! lol! i know! i know! i’m keeping promise to brad. the only time i will skim again is with him. so by then, i’m just going to keep on running and keep my leg working at my pace. i might as well run for the marathon. i mean really, i think it’s so sweet when he has asked me about how firm my decision is. i’ve told him a lot of times that i’m stopping, sacrificing for a greater cause.

tsk tsk somehow i can mirror my skimboarding to my former love to kie. in between those times i’ve been telling myself to stop. it took a lot of years to finally realize that. lol! i’m mocking myself. this is good. i’m finally processing after all those months of not really saying anything. yeah, i’m really fine now with kie. i settle things already. i’m just so thankful i have a very understanding and supportive boyfriend, whose so honest too. and, it’s his birthday today.

happy birthday brad. life has been very pretty with you. i wish you would do things otherwise. hehehe you know what i mean. it’s been too long, mate. but either way, i’m just here. i believe in you and in that day that you’ll just drop it and quit. i love you and i’m going to keep you happy for as much as i can, or perhaps beyond.

i saw th korookz pix in augie’s fs. yeah, somehow i’ve not taken it good. i’m sort of pissed off. mad. really pissed off. really? the women were in their bikinis? like, show it off or something… extra points with the judges. that’s not my point, really. i just hate myself right now because i could not skim anymore.  i’m progressing really good. all that i’ve worked for just go in vain. yeah, i know i have to  retire somehow. but, not like this. i’m so mad that i’m going to study for the rest of my life. and, my only idea of fitness is the gym and yoga. no more sports for me ( i wonder if i could live up to my word…hmmnnn… no more sports).

brad is right. the only reason i have started skimboarding is the fact that i’ve been broken and hurt.  or worse yet, because of kie. i just substitute emotional pain with the possibility of being hurt of broken physically. like i’ve said, skimboarding and i have an intimate relationship. i mean, now that i have brad - whose a skimboader by the way - i should be gratuitous.

*stare at the ceiling* now what would be my idea of fun? hmmnnn i’m going to find out after a visit to the doctor.

for sometimes now, i’ve been meaning to get an insurance. more  of a health insurance. like now, i mean i shouldn’t spending from my allowance. i’m just too lucky, i guess. well taken cared of as i would like to believe. i could really use a term life insurance for my lifestyle. oopps! do i still have that in full meaning? tan has one. i don’t know, there no beneficiary to start with? lol! but i think it is an assurance, yeah? i better start having it when i get my next job. of course, i don’t want to be leeching away on my parents.

im way behind my reviews. i can barely type with my left clavicle broken again. but hey, i want to whine. the boyfriend is “tired.” i still have hang ups yesterday. yeah, i could’ve been raped. i could not do anything. putting on a bra is just too hard. i don’t even kow if my nipple is perking out through a dark purple color. wtf?! he has told me, “euhmm i’m not being rude or anything but i’m so distracted with your nipple.” seriously?! then he asked me to a nice hotel. do i look like sex is written all over my face? yes, i am sexually deprived. so what? it doesn’t mean i want some. like really? like i could not masturbate?

i’m impress. i found this new shopping website and it’s way even easy than ebay. i never knew i’ve been missing something until i tried it. the site has this bracket sale feature. i don’t have to waste my time looking for the perfect item for my budget. really, how convenient is that? so anyway, i’m really getting goog at online shopping although i have the tendency to hoard. i think i should get my brakes on that somehow. bu then again, when i see shiny things, i just cannot help it.

yeah so i’m between having a hard time. with only one hand functioning and trying to get liquid rather than relying on parental charity. it’s just really funny that i’m not being remorseful aout my current situation. perhaps i’ve benn here already. like, second time is a charm? there’s nothing charming about it, really. so back to the subject: i’ve been meaning to have my own business. it’s just that it’s getting in the way of my skimboarding schedule. *roll eyes* no wonder i got my collar bone busted.

yeah, yeah, yeah i should’ve stop when my instinct has told me the nth time. this is just the drastic move. but really, i still don’t want to quit. but this time, i’ll try harder to just be an ordinary struggling individual. by that, i mean, i have to let go of fun, if not find another way of playtime. lol i’m such a kid, yeah?

oh yeah back to the business thing, franchising might be a good start, or that small business for sale. but then again, i have to convince dad. should i just work instead?

I’ve just talked to Chaii and well I really want her  to be a good skim photographer. There is still no one yet. She’s getting good with her camera. I really expect her to be the best. She has an eye. For a novice, she can get it right.

I think my friends are slowly getting into photography. Johann too has an eye. A weird one, actually. But he has good pictures.

My brother too is trying hard to be one. I think he is just in it for the thrill. I haven’t really seen him focus on a  subject. All he has been taking are people, his buddies and sometimes butts. Most of the time, he takes wasted friends. And yeah, I see my old skimboards in it all the time. I figure where they even have gone these days.

Honestly, I want to try photo blogging for some times now. I just don’t have the camera. I want to snatch my brother’s camera. He just uses it for fun and party and what nots. But then again, I won’t be writing that much anymore if I’ll be doing it. Hmmnn it kind of remind me about making a photo essay for Halleigh. I better ask Donna for that pictures.