seacielo

In the event of my existence. I just couldn’t fathom why I seem to be taken away from the crowd. I realize that today. Not that I don’t want to be in the circle, but some forces keep me from everything and everybody else. Ironically, I know most everybody else. Not only that, I am kept from associating from people who could throw me into the dark deep pit. Unless of course, I force myself. But then again, I don’t like rationalizing things. It fascinates me, yeah? However, there are things that should be left just as they are. Actually, I already stop understanding my life and start living it instead.

For what it’s worth, my association with people requires intensity. I have never known someone without passion or conviction. I have some close significant others minus such qualities (like Cha² who is a self-confessed material girl. Perhaps she would love it if I give her one of those Festina watches), but it’s okay. Mediocrity keeps me in reality. I admit, I feel judgmental at times. Yet, I always remind myself that whatever that person do is not of my business. I don’t care that much.

Yeah, I don’t really care now. I mean, I have 10-year immunity. Hmmnn what am I suppose to do with all that time? Ten years of selfishness. Well, I think fate finally gives me a vacation. I have been so selfless all these times, even to the extent of agony.

So anyhoo, I realize I have to go back to my original weight. It takes a lot of power. Geezh, I need to shred eleven pounds or four kilos. Ha! I can do this in a month. No wonder I run slow. No wonder I feel heavy.  It’s funny. I’m losing weight not to look good or whatever. I am losing weight so I can run faster. The goal is 105lbs. Lol! Hehehehe actually, I am considered someone with a healthy weight. I just need to run as fast as I can. The good news is I can do it fast, as long as I keep eating sugar at a minimal.

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