seacielo

anyway, *sigh* i really do not want to blame others of my state of emotion. because in ways, i allow them to do horrible things to me, which somehow i cherished at that moment. but for the record: THEY KILLED THE FIRE IN ME. THEY TOOK AWAY THE LIGHT.

it’s my fault, no? i am too naive. i am too selfless and somehow unconditional. that is why i prefer evil ones. at least i know they are real evil with no farce effect. good ones, on the other hand, hmmm… they are so deceiving. at least evil is predictable. and if there might be little, if not huge amendments, it will always be for the greater good.

but now. i am writing back. going back to my skin. going back to where i belong. trying to let go of the one thing i throw away in the ocean. but i still love the open sea, and i will still be there sometimes soon. it is just a matter of time. not now though, maybe tomorrow.